Also titled: Life, in all its unedited glory!
I love Lucy's outlook on life. She inspires me and challenges me.
Just yesterday I was crying. I was really upset and hurt by some people.
I can't go into the situation but in addition to feeling like I myself lost something,
I was worried about Lucy.
I was upset knowing one day its very possible,
that she might watch this same situation
(but with different people involved) unfold.
I don't want my daughter crying 20 years from now wondering why these people involved don't care about her. I never ever for a second want her to have to wonder if every person on all sides of her family love her. A kid shouldn't have to wonder about that.
I don't want her to experience something like the miscarriage we had and
have to face some of the reactions that we have
while also trying to grieve and heal.
My heart felt so heavy yesterday afternoon I just broke down.
That's when Lucy took my hand.
She gave me kisses and hugs.
And finally she looked me in the eye.
Very simply she handed me a piece of chalk and said...
"Mommy, color happy. Just. color. happy!"
In all the wisdom of her 2.5 years she was saying "Its okay, Mommy. Things look messed up at times. They look sad. But that's when you make the CHOICE to color happy instead."
And so we did.
Pretty sure I'm the luckiest Mommy on earth :)