Monday, April 25, 2011

Not the Easter we expected.

I know I'm way overdue on posting pictures and returning messages. I just figured I'd explain why since there isn't a need to keep this a secret anymore. It will probably still take me a few more days to get back on here again but when I wrote my last post I knew I was pregnant. That following Monday I finally broke down and tested. It was positive and the next day my OB confirmed it. I had terrible morning sickness all week. It was as strong as when I had Lucy. So we were calling this little one our "Bunny." Because it was like this huge awesome surprise from the Easter Bunny. Well, yesterday my parents kept Lucy pretty much all day so G.I. Joe could take me to the ER. We hung out, endured some tests, laughed, cried, watched Wild Hogs on the flat screen TV in my room. Then today we went back to my OB to confirm that I am miscarrying. Our little Bunny would have been due this Christmas.

These past couple days have been really difficult but we're so thankful for our amazing friends and family who have been and continue to pray for us. We're very blindsided by this and it still doesn't seem real. But I'm also super thankful that this at least happened while G.I. Joe and I could go through it together. He's held my hand and taken great care of me. Lucy has also been showering me with kisses, which is better than any pain medicine I could ever ask for.

It was hard for me to show outward excitement last week because I felt so sick all the time. Now the hard part is coming to grips with how excited I truly was. Closing tabs on my computer for "how to crochet baby booties" or the link to the fetal dopplar I was going to buy so I could record the heartbeat for G.I. Joe while he's away...is harder than I ever imagined.




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35 comments:

Wife of a Sailor said...

I'm so so sorry. That is just the worst. I'm glad your husband was there with you. ((hugs))

Mr. Superman & Mrs. S. said...

I don't know if it was just a coincidence or what but you have been on my mind A LOT the last two weeks or so. Just know I'm praying for you an I understand completely. Its the hardest thing to go through and I wish words helped but they don't really do much at all. I am so glad your husband is there though, a tender mercy for sure. You know I'll do anything I can so don't hesitate to ask okay?

xoxo

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry for your loss. Now you have an angel in heaven that spent Easter with Jesus, and can now watch over you. Joy comes in the morning. You are strong and will get thru this, but you know that!

Amber said...

I am so sorry for your loss. ((hugs))

Katie F said...

Love you. I'm hear for you anytime. Prayers for you guys

chambanachik said...

Praying for you. Much love.

AF wifey said...

Im so sorry for your loss sweetie! Ill be thinking about you!

Dr. Army Wife said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. Hugs.

Alyssa said...

I'm so sorry to hear that.... You're in my thoughts and prayers

Amanda said...

I ao so sorry, I can't even begin to imagine... your family is in my prayers.

Sammie said...

Big hugs. We just went through this 2 weeks ago--our baby should have been here around Thanksgiving. My hubby was suppose to deploy the day after we found out we lost the baby. Thank God they let him stay home for a few extra weeks. It sucks so much that it's practically undescribable, but the pain gets a little better with time. I promise.

The Mrs. said...

((HUGS)) I am so, so sorry for your loss. I will keep you in my prayers. ((HUGS))

Madison {Life Happens During Naptime} said...

I'm so sorry J. I wish I could be there to give you a big hug. Keep your chin up and remember that God uses all things for his glory, even the tough ones :*( And more prayers are coming your way.

Julie said...

I'm so sorry :( You are in my prayers.

Pink Champagne, Gatorade, and MRE's said...

very sorry to hear the news! thoughts and prayer go out to you both!

Sarah Heineman said...

I just said a little prayer for you and your family that you can feel peace in this time. <3

Melissa said...

I am so sorry you're going through that. I hope you let Lucy's kisses continue to be your medicine. That's precious stuff.

Jenna said...

Thinking of you *hugs*

Lora said...

I'm so very sorry. I had an early miscarriage at 8 weeks two years ago and it was much, MUCH harder physically and emotionally than I had ever imagined it would be. Take good care of yourself beyond just the next few days, but on in to the next few weeks as well. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your sweet family.

Matt said...

Hey girl. I am so sorry for your family's loss. I can hardly imagine the gammet of emotions you are experiencing. Sending you prayers for the grace and peace you need to endure this tragic situation.

The Heart of the Home said...

I am so very deeply sorry for your loss! I wish I could put my arms around you and give you a hug right now. Please know we will be praying for you and GI Joe and Lucy.
We also experienced a miscarriage just shortly after finding out we were pregnant. This was before I got pregnant with our son. We will always believe we have a little girl waiting for us in heaven.
As you walk through this time of conflicting emotions and crazy hormones I would recommend a book to you. It's called A Shattered Dream by Sherokee Ilse. She also wrote a book called Empty Arms but the Shattered Dream book speaks more to miscarriage. When I was a NICU nurse we used them with families who had experienced loss and her book was a balm to me when we miscarried.
You don't have to post this comment. I just wanted you to know that I am so sorry and will be praying for you.
In His love,
Janet

Mrs. H said...

The very same thing happened to me and whoever my little "bunny" was supposed to be was going to be my first. It's alot to take in and so hard to get through, but thing happen for a reason! You're in my prayers ♥

Jen said...

I am sooo sorry, I know how painful this is and I'm praying that you are ok and just believe everything will be ok.

Brianna Renee said...

I wish just saying I'm sorry would be enough to take the pain away because I am so very sorry. I've been there and I understand. It sucks. I hope you're able to give yourself the freedom to feel and do whatever you need...be angry, be sad, be confused...cry, yell, eat, pray...some sort of combination of all. Whatever helps you in the moment. You and your husband will be in my prayers.

Jessica said...

I am so very very sorry. You will be in my prayers

Carmen said...

I am so sorry you and your husband had to go through something like this. It's the worst feeling in the world (I imagine) and just know we are all here for you. If you need anything at all, please don't hesitate. You are in my thoughts and prayers <3

Kathryn said...

I am so sorry for your loss, and all I can say is that I understand. Two years ago I miscarried only a few hours after finding out for sure I was pregnant. I will be praying for you, and will pray for peace and comfort for you and your family.

Jane said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. Having had far too much experience with this sadness, I'm always willing to listen with understanding and caring ears! Many prayers for you, G.I. Joe, Lucy, and your sweet baby in heaven.

Mateya said...

So sad to hear this! Prayers for peace and comfort for you and Mr. GI Joe.

Wife on the Roller Coaster said...

I can't believe I"m just now reading this, and I'm so sorry for the delayed response. Oh honey, I'm so sorry for your loss. I am sending lots of thoughts and prayers your way. Hang in there. Hugs and kisses.

Amyables said...

I can't believe I'm only now reading this! But for some reason, you were on my mind over the weekend, and now I know why. I love how God puts our loved ones in our hearts when they need our thoughts - even if you don't know why at the time. You are in my heart, sweet friend, and you have all of our thoughts and prayers!

Lauren said...

New reader of your blog. Just wanted to say that I'm so sorry for your loss. I've had two miscarriages so I know what you're going through and just wanted to let you know that you're in my thoughts and prayers.

Nancy said...

My heart aches for you. I am sending healing thoughts and prayers to you.

R said...

Hey darlin - I'm so sorry I'm just now seeing this - for some reason this post email went to my spam. I wish I'd seen it earlier.

I'm so sorry for your loss :( My sister miscarried in December, and I have several other friends & family who have been through this as well, every time it breaks my heart. My heart aches for you. I'm sending lots of love and prayers your way... wish I could give you a giant hug too. xoxo

I'm Sheila Atchley. said...

Honey, you don't know me, but I follow your momma's blog. Just wanted to tell you, after the fact, that I am so very sorry, and I am praying for you tonight...

Praying for very EVIDENT tokens of the Lord's great love to be manifested to you this week, that the comfort continue, and your healing continue as well.

Grace and Peace.